Do you ever wrestle with feeling anxious for the day when you feel like you are really “doing” what the Lord has called you to do?
Sometimes I find that I’m expecting to feel a measure of satisfaction to confirm that my time is officially being spent purposefully; as if the lack of consistent satisfaction with what I am doing means my tasks are currently unimportant; trivial.
My pastor spoke this past Sunday about a few parables, or stories, in Mark chapter 4:21-33 about Jesus speaking to a crowd of people regarding the Kingdom of God. One of the teachings we draw from the parables is that the Kingdom of God comes progressively; over time in ways we cannot always see or understand.
I was reminded that we have no clue how God uses our daily interactions with other people; our coworkers, strangers, friends, family.
I often think I can judge for myself what makes an impact and what doesn’t; but that is not the case.
What matters is how we live our life each day; each moment. What matters is whether or not we are seeking to love the Lord and love others in all that we do, when the spot light is on and when the spot light is off. What matters is that we trust God with each baby step, and each hurtle, of our life.
God will figure out the rest. God will judge the worth in the current tasks at hand He has given me. And He will be teaching me, growing me, and readying me each step of the way…even when I can’t see it.
God encouraged me this morning with this statement of truth:
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Psalm 46:10
God’s name will be exalted among the earth even when I don’t feel as if I am playing a heroic part in that movement. I have the honor of being involved in the coming of His kingdom when I humble myself before him and submit my life daily in all that I do.
When I am still before Him and allow him to speak to me and guide me, then I can be sure that I won’t miss out on “living large” in His glory. Nor will my current tasks be unimportant.